The very first thing we did after hearing that she died in the accident and we were to go home and wait for the police to come to our house, was to pray. We prayed that God had her in Heaven. We prayed that God would comfort us. We prayed that God would show us that He truly had her. You see, even though she had accepted Jesus Christ, she was living like a 17 y/o in this world.
Kaitlyn Marie Tangen had a heart for the underdog and she was beautiful. But she was also a kid, she made mistakes, like so many of us do. But Jesus himself showed both Brian and me that his grace is bigger than we could ever know. We were both given confirmation over and over again that Kaitlyn was home with the Lord. From the very first time, when Jesus spoke to Brian in a dream or a vision and told him that he had Kaitlyn in his hands the very moment she hit the ground, to the last time when a virtual stranger at church approached us because he had been given a vision or our daughter dancing before the Lord and she was happy. With signs like this, how could I ever question the reality of Jesus and what he does for us?
Jesus made us stronger! When people say that your faith is a crutch, I tell them, absolutely! I need something strong to lean on when I am at my weakest. Because of my faith and the knowledge of what Christ has done in our lives, Brian and I have tried to convey that to everyone we meet. We have had more opportunity to preach the Gospel and witness because we had to say good-bye to our daughter. I would never in a million years ask for this to happen. But I have truly learned that all things work for the glory of God, no matter what. Did you catch that? ALL things work for the glory of God. He can turn anything around if you are willing to see it and accept it.
I believe my beautiful daughter is dancing before the Lord, giving praises to Jesus, enjoying her very sparkly mansion and taking in as many cats, dogs and horses as she can when they arrive in Heaven. I believe she can see us down here on earth and like it says in the Bible, we are being prayed for by a cloud of witnesses. She is part of that. I can not think of anywhere in the Bible where it says we stop praying because we have gone to Heaven.
So please don't be sad for Brian and me. Please celebrate her life with us! We KNOW we will see her again one day.