Today, I started a journey that I pray will be successful and will make a huge difference in my life. I made sure and started my day with prayer, I have eaten well, drank plenty of water and now I am getting ready to do a workout. I need to lose 100 lbs. This weight is for my health and I mean all types of health. This weight has caused issues with my diabetes as well as my inability to do things or feel good or even feel good about myself. My taking off 100lbs, this is also metaphoric, in that I will be taking off the weight that I let Satan saddle me with in my thoughts and my walk. When you don't feel good, you don't want to do anything, even for the church. This is not who I am. It is time to change. So I am on a journey back to myself. I have started this journey many times. Sometimes, I get a good long ways and others only a few steps. It is time for me to seek and see success.
My goal is to be transparent and share my thoughts here. Some days, I am sure it will be more depressing than anything else. But I also pray, that you will be able to see the change in me, as I am lifted up. This is what I want from this. To be lifted up and to feel good, and feel useful and to feel attractive, none of which I feel at this very point.
So, as I place myself before all of you publicly, please only encouraging comments if you choose to leave one. I have a plan of action, so I don't really need any advice, I know what I need to do, I just have to do it. And I will keep everyone updated.
By the way, I started out with a weight yesterday of 245.5 lbs. I think that is my all time high. So for anyone that thinks I was kidding about needing to lose 100lbs, you can see that it is true.